Is it not true that when someone hurts you most people wish for revenge or that the other person recieves karma?
Have you ever asked yourself how much cruelty one man or woman can take? How much hurt do you need to inflict before you realize all thats happening is take take take.
What if some people have nothing left to give so fear set in and takes over any and all pieces that once let them give?
Punishment is appropriate for crimes and wrong doings but how can one recieve punishment when there is no conversation about when it will end or when we can begin healing?
Have you ever stopped and asked yourself if thats enough? Have you ever stopped and asked yourself everyday, are you good enough? Only to have a demon smile in the back telling you “no” so that way you remain pinned down so broken not sure you could ever be whole.
Let me tell you its a feeling that can’t be undone. Its a feeling of torture within yourself. When you are so hard on yourself and feel like the world will probably cave in. What do you do when you are drowning and there is no boat yet you’re still kicking trying to stay afloat. The people you love most can’t reach you and the one who can, just won’t.
How much can one person take before they simply stop trying all together? Believing this is the last time they’ll have to fight only for there to be three others times to fall to pieces.
The heart can grow cold and shut down. Numbness sets in. How weird is it when all you want is to feel and yet you cant feel the warmth of any touch. Have you ever asked yourself if this is worth all its supposed to be? If you cut out the bullshit am I the woman I am meant to be? Are you the man whose supposed to love me unconditionally?
You can give me no answer because the answer I seek is an action not a word. I am in shambles, leaving scattered pieces of myself all over the ground. Inflicted wounds on both sides and yet I still carry hope. I’d fight the toughest demons just to know why I am not whole.
I wish I knew what you were thinking but thats not the point is it…the key here is to keep me guessing, keep me thinking , but perhaps there is no reason at all and I am simply overthinking.